My head is spinning...

Today was really tired... finished discussion at around 6pm, i'm really exhausted... three assignments no actually was four assignment need to pass up next week... again life is really full of unexpected events... there's a moment when i felt i explain all things but in fact till the end of the day my head was upside down... no its not because of i'm exhausted but i realized that there is no perfection in understanding... why you don't trust me... when i said only mean only and my words will remain even things around me might not be the same anymore... maybe there is something i must learn... to be obedient and live lean not by my own will... or are there still a hope in where there's a trial for me... i'm really tired... yes if that's Your will let it be... i will be still and know You are God. there were past tense, here is present tense and lastly i put a full stop.(i realized- i realize- i realize.) i shall let it be another unsolved puzzle. Yes, all the time i always think i be able to change people around... like my sisters, i want them to be able to see things more clearly... maybe my way of teaching them are wrong... i just need to do the simple thing... learn to love them more and care more for them... again like what uncle kevin said open eyes so that i can see clearly what's the thing that related to the kingdom.. I'm wholeheartedly committed to You and humble i come before You in my very menial way to serve You all my life. I love You Lord. In Alignment and reposition and all things will work out right for Your glory Lord.