Only Love Could Make a Way

Because of incompatible

2009-08-15T02:23:00.002+08:00

Cant sleep~ maybe update my blog little bit la..updated my mobile blog so to be fair update this one also la. Some time I just don’t get it. Well, it might seems to me an incompatible issue but if it does why does it appear in the ‘compatible list’? nvm liao la..i quite d anyway..

Here is my beloved mobo. on the left is gigabyte ep45-ud3p rev1.1 and right is rev1.0. Obviously the different are rev1.1 are with the upgraded chip’s heat sink.

E8400 EO stepping no doubt is a good proc. But Q9505 which released on June 2009, with Mr. P help, manage to get my hand on it was really impressive. Below is E8400 and above is Q9505. Cant really tell the different physically, the shape i mean. Performance wise it was a big difference.

I render a video with the length of 3mins..took me merely 15-20mins with added animation on it…40% faster!! of cause not just the miracle from the proc but also i oc the ram and proc to 3.4ghz.

Hope this setting can survive on the next 3yrs. idle temp 24 ‘C and load 28’c-36’c it better don’t give me problem. If not i forever don’t trust intel and switch to amd. haha.

Bundaberg ginger beer+two ice cudes= heaven

2009-06-28T01:45:00.003+08:00

In such a hot weather a ginger beer from Bundaberg is the best^^..I bought two bottles of ginger beer last week..and guess what I fell in love with it especially during a time like this..with two ice cubes and half glass of it..oh man, like what stanley always said..you go to heaven..lol

I forgot to take Dike home..ya, again..haiz..how I wish I have save my works in my phone's pendrive..

Migrate to i7??maybe QX first la..or just Q9xxx first..

I want to thank God for you always provide:)

Interesting Fact.

2009-05-31T14:47:00.003+08:00

開車時遇到大雨怎麼辦?

這個小方法是由一位警察朋友口中得知，並經親身試驗後證實 ... 真的有用耶... 即使是晚上開車也都沒問題..

許多開車朋友，大概都遭遇過類似情況，遇到滂沱大雨時，就算雨刷給它用力地刷，刷到最快速，也依然看不清前方的視線及車距 ...

某天，偶然由一位警察朋友口中得知，遇到這種情況時，不妨戴上墨鏡 , 任何款式皆可，然後..... 神奇的事情就會發生啦~~~

突然間，原本如豆大般狂洩而下，幾乎遮住所有視線的傾盆大雨，好像變不見了.... 眼中看到的，只剩下前方的車輛... ..... 既清楚又不必擔心視線不清 ...

好東西要和好朋友分享... 好資訊當然更要讓你知道囉 ....

在車上準備一副墨鏡吧..... 有機會不妨試試, 若真能因此而提高生命安全的保障，又何樂而不為呢?

just got this from an email.. translate it to english is:

Driving on a heavy rain day and the wipers just doesn't help in clearing your view, try to wear a sunglass it helps :)

ps: translation from a lazy translator

My old friend, Naked and smoothy Dike.

2009-05-26T16:52:00.001+08:00

Let me introduce this friend of my who company me through up and down for almost three years. His name is Dike. Today I decided to upgrade him, yes, after I downgrade him early this year from 4gb to 3gb ram i decide to give him what he deserved.

Yes, I going to upgrade the proc to T7400 ^^

He was kinda shy after 3hours of persuade finally he agreed to show what’s under the hinge cover.

crumbs!!!My bad, while i remove the keyboard I took out the ctrl key which i spent 30mins just to fix it back..sigh

Now Dike is naked..hahaha

No choice to upgrade processor have to disassemble every part.

Anyone can guess what is this?hehe

haiyo, you are so hidden la..so hard to find you o..haha

Finally, with crossed fingers I on the power and it’s running smooth now^^

Sucks all the dust^^

2009-05-21T21:24:00.001+08:00

Is time to suck all the dust and apply new thermal paste :)

Look sparking new right? Thanks to isopropyl 99.8% alcohol(initially just wanted use it to clean my proc before apply the new thermal paste :p)

yup, cooler master thermal paste. no money to buy as5 lo.

changed the position of 120 extreme, hope can be cooler than before~~

99.8% alcohol and it’s Flammable, kids dont try it at home~~

Clean clean, broom away the spider webs

2009-05-02T04:37:00.004+08:00

I have forgotten the skills, the skills that I once have had to enable me stand outside circumstances and find the truly me that right inside me. He said potential will remain potential if you never wish to develop it. Just like "Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Willing is not enough; we must do." Quoted from my 4 o'clock where posted on the door. Which I believe everyone from my mother school are familiar with. On my 2 o'clock I look up, the manual that leads me to my potential are yet to be study. And now there are 3 o'clock left for the world to judge how worth am I. We make thousand of decision every days. To write a random post or give a serious thought, to wake up or continue sleep, go west or east, take shower first or eat first, to think or just follow, to obey or disobey and every decision made there are consequences that shaped who you are.

Finding myself is very much important or was it? created from dust and no control of when will be back to original form, are we destined or we destine who we will be?A voice that whispering, they called it conscience but I call it voice from Him whom I love. Its more than conscience and without His words it can be dangerous where differences are just between the line, possibility to become 'con science', a new term from my dictionary that defined as 'a science/logical thinking/know-it-all's arrogant that deceive you from the truth'. We are created to obey not the other way round. In line through the words or offline with Him that leads to death.

I need to fresh install my operating system. My mind control my decision but the Spirit is the utmost decision counsel. There must be a clear line to avoid overpowering to happen. My dear wise counsel speak louder as I have a listening problem. Give me eardrums that are sensitive to your voice which even greater than dolphin's. Sorry for I have to say sorry again for all my weaknesses.

His blood a little like fresh install os. The greater things of the first is it leave no record as we restore back to Him; whereas later are still data that left behind.

...fresh install are almost finish, please reboot to complete the progress...

...you left ∞ times until you are back home with me...

Always love,
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit aka Jesus Christ

I dreamed a dream

2009-04-18T08:22:00.001+08:00

Wow!! At the age of 47 years old, Susan Boyle you are indeed a wake up call for those who judge book by it’s cover and it’s never too late to have a dream come true. Congrats!!!

Communication Evolution vs “Ridiculous” Future of Communication

2009-03-26T20:43:00.001+08:00

To Fall in Love

2009-03-23T11:59:00.001+08:00

The Adamo, derived from Latin “to fall in love”.

adamo pearl

adamo onyx

Dell just recently unveiled the world's thinnest laptop, the Adamo series which Dell's calls the pinnacle of craftsmanship, design and feature. He features a chassis milled from a single piece of aluminum with precision detailing and a scalloped backlit keyboard and a high definition edge-to-edge glass 13.4" LCD display. 128GB solid state hard drive, draft-N WiFi and Bluetooth™ are standard and where integrated mobile broadband support is an optional.

Packaging

Price starting from RM7.4k

Another killer machine from Dell, in price and spec that any enthusiast will go all out to grab it. Let’s see what happened to the other two rivals after the jump.

sources: http://www.flickr.com/photos/dellphotos/ ,

My comrade

2009-03-19T12:17:00.001+08:00

from the outside

what’s inside

from side window

I’m happy.even for a moment=)

No regrets

2009-03-19T08:00:00.001+08:00

Should I be bold
Enough to speak
In this moment
A reverent heart
Will surely be unbroken
With no regrets
Should I be lost
In forgetfulness
With no regrets
In my head,
Faithfully shared
Should I be rich
And poor
And scattered
In my dreams
What are the thickets
That surround me
They’re unguarded
With no regrets
Should I be lost
In forgetfulness with no regrets
In my head, faithfully shared
I’m free from the worry,
Free from the dark that lives in me
Free to embark on the passion
You favorably fashion in me
With no regrets,
Should I be lost in forgetfulness
With no regrets
In my head,
Faithfully shared
Faithfully shared

by Jennifer Knapp

Beautiful Short Film

2009-03-12T00:16:00.001+08:00

source: www.youtube.com/watch?v=VzFpg271sm8

Love in First Sight

2009-03-11T20:37:00.001+08:00

You Deserve

2009-03-10T21:50:00.001+08:00

What is this love given to us
That saved my life through selfless sacrifice
Although we fail the cross prevails
Forgiveness stands
You take me back again
You’ve shown me life
You’ve opened my eyes
So I give You my praise
Yeah I give You my all
You’ve shown me life
You’ve opened my eyes
To the truth that there’s no greater love
Now in the darkness God’s light shines
Christ forever glorified
So come on come on sing out to God
Now with all we’ve got
We live for You our God
Salvation’s strong in Christ alone
The Saviour King alone in victory
I step aside give You my life
For You to move do what You want to do
I can’t imagine a life without You without You
‘Cause it’s all for You
Yeah it’s all for You
God

by Hillsong United

Time

2009-03-10T08:40:00.001+08:00

Time is crucial yet I no longer sensed it presence, just numb. I wish I have more time. Mind became dull, energy being drained. I am vex yet time are just passing by and never wait. The verses you lazy and wicked servent keep strike me. So much so that I hardly can look up, of the unworthiness that is in me. I want to give back tenfold the talents that are given. Yet just how many talents that I will give back to you? That’s the only question that I am concerned for the answer I am giving you is always tenfold, just how and when. Strengthen me Lord.

Drowning

2009-03-06T23:07:00.001+08:00

I don’t like this, I do whatever I can to breakaway. Thank God it’s Friday.

Sea Sailing

2009-03-06T00:38:00.001+08:00

I am like the sail boat on the sea, the coast is near within eyesight yet to dock on pier is not as though running a straight line race. Waves will hit, storm is ever expecting, and winds, the speed or where it blows, are all fundamental to determine when and how to get over there. Even its just within eyesight.

I love and wanted to sea sailing but I think I will seasick. And I don’t know how to swim.

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“If life is a smooth sailing, then you must be left out something” some said.

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“Let us go over to the other side”
That’s the only words that rest assured all else

MSDN

2009-03-05T17:03:00.001+08:00

I just log in to gmail, and one mail outstanding of many fb comments, it’s from MSDN Academic Alliance. Yahoo!!!Finally I got it liao=D. Arigato gozaimasu Microsoft=D. Ok..i must go work find money for my new babe..hohoho..Pc fair faster come le..

Fish Market

2009-03-05T16:49:00.001+08:00

Last year when two of my sisters told me that they went to fish market for company farewell dinner, in my mind i was imagining that the place like supermarket and have variety choice of fresh fish for you to choose and the chef will cook for you with the fresh fish that you have chosen. That time I didn’t bother to ask them cause you know la, brother should be knowing everything one ba. I never know there was a fish market at The Spring only few weeks later I unintentionally find out. Now I having my lunch at fish market.haha.why?

Today my bluecube couldn’t connect, then I realised, my account being barred. Sigh, so I go to clear my payment at the “Blue Cube” in theSpring.T_T..any restaurant want to hire weekdays waitress 8-11pm?Call me!!!That money was for my new babe one le..haiz

On top of all these, my meal was half paid off by fish market aye.haha. I been given a RM10 voucher when I passing by to pay my bill. That’s when I make a painful decision to have my lunch there la.alone some more kok. sigh.

Well, the dish was ok la. Its suddenly remind me of today lecturer talk about “Shopping therapia”. She said when girls work very hard to earn their income and stress come, they tend to go for shopping to ‘reward’ themself, then, she asked: “How about guys?” Guys are simple, sleep. Haha. O probably eat?When under depression maybe la. At least I am one of those kind. Get the hint?I am under depression. Neh, I will be fine one la. A brighter day ahead!!!

This the food I ate=D.

O.o..received a unknown msg from my modem. Guess wat?

Thought finally my account reactivate and receive msg from celcom. Mana tau.(&%$#%@#..) Lately I received kinda a lot this kind of msg to my dg number as well.Duh=_=lll

The RM10 voucher that they gave

Personally I like this=D
One day I will named my cafe “the Lighthouse Cafe”

A bad move?

2009-03-03T10:34:00.001+08:00

I just found myself very quick in making decision especially when come to thing that I enthuse, for example like yesterday with an unexpected call of a friend asking my opinion on his purchase of a secondhand pc and because I always think of getting a better performance desktop and I just let slip that I was going to sell off my old pc then he asked me how much so I just do a basic calculation to him. To cut the whole story short,yea, I am selling off my pc this friday. I was just realised that I can make a better choice if I wasn’t too quick to say yes to my friend. But, what is gone is gone. I anticipating on a new one this coming April 3-5 Pikom Pc Fair.

Let’s talk how my old pc spec are:

P4 1.6ghz processor, gigabyte motherboard, 512mb+256mb ram, 160gb hd, 256mb ati graphic card, sony dvd-burner, and ATX tower casing with 400watt psu.

and the spec that I will probably have:

C2D 2.6ghz(est. rm240)
ASUS mainboard (budget rm200)
2gb PC800 DDR2 ram (est. rm 65)
320gb hd(rm0)
ATI graphic card (budget rm200)
DVD-burner(budget rm80)
ATX Computer casing with psu(budget rm 100)
total: rm890- rm200=rm690-rm400=rm290

cost to get a new set of pc = rm290 after exclude upgradable component and deduction from the sale of old pc.

*est. = my own estimation of pc fair price.

well, not a really bad move. But it could be a better move which I can be very happy to make when I thought of it last night. Anyway, the purpose of getting new set of pc is to trying out newly released beta version of Windows 7, Adobe After Effect, Pinnacle Studio 12, Sony Vegas 9, Adobe CS4, and to buy time+peace(you have no idea how many time you wasted in waiting the pc to log on, response to your command and emotionally hush of having a fast enough pc)

Friends

2009-02-22T00:16:00.001+08:00

Just went back from the service, and ya the internet was really slow and it pissed me off. If not because of the contract that I now having with the streamyx and celcom I would have just unsubscribe it..and also if only I have an alternative. Ok, since the internet is slow so just thinking of write up of what running in my mind just now..yea i know i am a lazy blogger and I won’t deny it.hehe

ともだち in Japanese means friends. I like hanging out with friends. They all occupied a certain place in my heart. And for everyone I will also store some special moment of every single one. For example, like this very special one whom I met few years ago. He is a very nice person and also he is the only man I actually seeing tears flowing down on his cheek while he describing the unfairness of the life he going through now at one and half years ago till now, where the working hours is so demanding and is like impossible to take leave. Reminiscent of that day in front of the traffic light at the T-junction is where I store a moment of the very moment. And don’t surprise that I remember every single words you said cause that’s the time I acknowledge you as the ‘emo’ guy, haha, no la, what I actually trying to say is that I feel really sorry for seldom keep in touch with you that time, and every time I just being a listener where I just really want to say something yet I just hardly find any words that time, i was kinda introvert ma that time~ I just realise that I always keep a gap between what mean to be called ‘Friend’, by being real, sharing life, keep in constant contact, and in upholding each other. I remember asking you to blog and you said “What to write about?Everyday just the same only, people read will also get bored.” But what I can tell is that, at least by what I thought, is that deliver a message by blog is effective in deliver what you wanted to tell and what you want the reader to know by stand in your shoe. And here I want to say I’m sorry for those who I seldom keep in touch with and bear with me ya~

Its 1215am d and ya i wanna go to bed liao. Ciao, nite nite.

Stop and Think

2009-02-17T01:41:00.001+08:00

Routine is not a good thing..its like every day is the same process..no different.. when i stop and think there are many things which i can do even better..when i give out my 100% or even 110%.

Time is passing by like a blink of eyes, now its already 3rd week of Feb. I need to stop and think. I need to talk to you and be embraced in your arms. The warmth and the peace. The open heart and a willing mind. The passion and the guide.

You be the light on my path. Led me in whispering or sign. Be with me and confront the unknown tomorrow, where you have full knowledge of.

Dell

2009-02-17T01:11:00.001+08:00

Got the bluetooth device from Dell..so small size yet in such big box=_="

Just got the new battery today..Yeah!!!and ya i think this box is way bigger..causes of global warming: waste the trees..and the fuel..learn from Apple la..see how they conscious the effect of the packaging of the new Macbook

Lord Reign in Me

2009-02-17T00:59:00.001+08:00

Over all the earth, You reign on high
Every mountain stream, every sunset sky
But my one request, Lord, my only aim
Is that You reign in me again.

Lord, reign in me, reign in Your power
Over all my dreams, in my darkest hour
Cause You are the Lord of all I am
So won't You reign in me again.

Over every thought, over every word
May my life reflect the beauty of my Lord
Cause You mean more to me than any earthly thing
So won't You reign in me again.

Time

2009-02-17T00:58:00.003+08:00

"Time is a great teacher, but unfortunately it kills all its pupils."

by Louis Hector Berlioz

Dare You to Move

2009-02-17T00:58:00.001+08:00

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everyone's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?
What happens next?
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move like today never happened
Today never happened before
Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be, yeah
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move like today never happened
Today never happened
Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before

by Switchfoot

Tagged

2009-02-17T00:57:00.001+08:00

How old are you?
23 and going to be 24 after the second week of Nov this yr.

Are you single?
Yea, still available.

In what age do you think you'll get married?
late 20?

Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
Not with anyone yet le.

If not, who do you want to marry?
Will let you know in ten years time..hehe

Do you want a garden/beach or a traditional wedding?
Garden would be nice, in blossom season=D

Your ideal motive?
To make her feel loved. Well I hope she not allergy to flower if not I will change it to somewhere else

Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
Hmm..how about Japan?

How many guests do you think you'll invite?
Eh..see how thick is my wallet and overall budget thingy..all my buddies must be invited for sure.

Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
Hmm…grand but not extravagant=D

Do you want the traditional vows or something you'd make up on your own?
I prefer make up on my own.

How many layers of cake do you want?
well…if I 27 married then will be 3 layers, 28 will be 4 layers, 29 will be 5 layers and each following year add one layer.lolz.what i mean here is: “it doesn’t matter le”.

Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or a simple place?
Hotel.

When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
Morning will be the best.

Do you like a grand entrance for your groom?
Eh..if there was a reason to be grand then let it be..if not then just the way it is lo..hehe

Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding?
Hmm…a song of meanings for both of us=)

Are you a morning person or a night person?
more on night lo..hehe

Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
A light one of cause, solemn in my wedding?neh..unless all my attender are old people lo..haha

Describe your ideal husband/wife?
My ideal one ah..thoughtful, understand me very well, sweet and more important I must be her perfect one whom she feel loved when spending the rest of her life with me and I can tell her everything no matter what it is where we can find accountability in each other by being open to each other.

Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
Fine dining=)

Champagne or red wine?
Red wine ah?most importantly it must not made me drunk.(what to do a less than 10% alcohol contained red wine already make my face turning red lo)

Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
After the wedding..hehe..i want 二人世界。

Money or household items?
I want to chose my own household items.hehe

Who will pay for the bills?
Me.

Are you ready for married life?
Nope.

Do you think you will still be a virgin until you get married?
Definitely.

Will you always be true to your wife/husband?
MUST!

How many kids would you like to have?
I always think of Four or five lo.

A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
A new house will be great lo.

What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
Chinese cuisine more variety o..western also not bad la but if all western then not nice d..haha

Will you record your honeymoon in a CD or DVD?
Yea, wonder DVD will become like today cassette or not in five years later le..haha..it must be rocorded for sure lo.=D

A Season to Love

2008-12-27T23:20:00.001+08:00

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves."
1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Overwhelmed

2008-12-27T23:19:00.001+08:00

A gift from Ps. Cheli after I told him I wanna use the love gift from Ms. Hai Bee to get a study bible, and just after I told him I am really overwhelmed for the generousity of Pastor that he go and get a study bible from Doulos for me.. aiyo, and I was actually in thinking twice to wanna accept it or not so I didn’t say thank you to him at the very begining..like what Yi An said ‘Pastor Cheli family are really giving a lot'. Like what a nigerian ps had said also: serving in a youth ministries unlike other ministries where you will just need to give out of your own. What had been sow will flourished, yes, and I believe many soul will be blessed.

Hmm…I guess now I cant put my face on it to actually sleep d, well consequence of reading bible lying on bed;p

Thank you can never be enough for your givings. I am grateful.

Another thing..NKJV..wa.. will it be hard to read?am I discipline enough to read it daily and really study deeper? You be my guide Lord and grant me the heart of desire to learn more.

Hohoho!A xmas gift from Santa??

2008-12-26T09:16:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO!!! since I make my complaint to telecom for line down one day and a half since my youngest sister birthday and finally the network came alive yesterday evening and currently I enjoying a 2mb bandwidth..wow..

Well, the story is like this… while my sister call me when I at uncle mark house i was shock when she said the unfamiliar number was our house number and went back home tried again.. yea, the number was different already and another wave of shock came was when downloading the rapidshare file the speed shown is a 2mb bandwidth spped. wow.. one late christmas gift from Santa!.. lolz..

Now its 26th of Dec, another 4 days and 14 hours 34mins(GMT+0800) to year 2009!!

Long long lost reply

2008-12-26T02:15:00.001+08:00

Having an hour conversation in msn with my cousin..well, asking a question that I don’t know how to answer is a pain and I take the way out for two years..cz too much went inside and coming out like a mess is even worse. So this time I choose not to put too much of myself.. it went out well but why I felt that my explaination just doesn’t reached thr yet when I been told that he don’t understand my life philosophy=_= and i do feel he just simply throw me questions which also make me feel like I am giving up to talk to him..a long way to go though.. what to expect to understand a person merely just words?have to find a time go and meet up again.

Last Monday, inside the van helped Jonathan massage and he said I am good at it do I massage anyone?Then I realised that I have been a long time since I ever spent time with my dad.. well picking the few grey hairs while I still secondary school was pretty much enjoying the time together. The first time when mom was away to Bintulu I was still primary school, he will give me money to lent novels and I will just love to chasing after all the novels of Jin Yong and conan detective comics without have my dinner and lunch some time 12hours a day non-stop until i finished it and my sis kind influenced by me. I can even remember he bought me a sony walkman that time.. yea its kinda cool but I lost it.. duh.. such a memorable item. Time flies and I can really feel it now. All the memory popping up.. unfulfilled promise to my grandma when I was 12, naughty me always quarrel with my cousin for her injustice(can’t really remember what happened but I know I am right.. hahaha well I always think like this so cant help) and sugarbun time with family…and many more…Well, guess I will just catching it up in my dream.hehe.. Good night~

A little secret

2008-12-24T14:05:00.001+08:00

=_=… lazy want to write it again… just put the video la.. wonder what happened to my windows live writer…anyway the main point is the free locker at kl central i accidently found out:p…have a cheerful days=)

You can save your Rm5(a token) for this FOC luggage locker at KL central=)

Quick Update

2008-12-19T19:11:00.000+08:00

Got some of my trip photos from friend on Tuesday was thinking to upload some but because my aunty is here for flight transition and need to bring them around and some other stuff pop-up so a bit delay.. haha ..ok in my phone i took some photos the time i lost direction in KL central so I just share the story la.. haha

Well I cant actually get lost in KL cental cause it just cant be, in fact I still proud of it, as my friend spent RM18 to call a cab to just get to 1utama while I spent less than rm10 going there and coming back, from sultan ismail..lol..ok the story begins when I took bus #82 from 1utama to KL central and when I reached KL central instead of going up I went down to the basement where it's a parking slot. Well, my common sense told me thr must be a stair case to go up so I just go straight la. In the end, i saw two security guards they told me that I can't use the way there and asked me to go up and I show them my expression 'serious ah?', and i look a direction where from the outside it looks like a tunnel. Well out of my expectation one of the guard direct me to use the tunnel to go inside KL central. The pic above showed the tunnel i went through which took me 2minutes to reached the entrance of the stair case to go up.

Yeah, finally reached the ground floor.

Yea, right beside my left hand side is the KFC. Haha.. guess what?I ordered one set of dinner plate thr..hehe..update more later

Tune Hotels.. not bad=D

2008-12-08T23:32:00.002+08:00

Finally I have internet access since I landed Peninsular week ago. Well, now I online at Tune Hotels, will be staying for 3 days 2 nights here.. guess what.. rm9.90 per day. Cheap right?haha.. and no kidding a 5 stars sleep experience with 1 star price. Two thumbs up!!! Anyway will upload some more when I get back home. Tata

Where should I start?

2008-11-29T10:15:00.000+08:00

Ins and outs, days and nights, week after weeks. Here again flip to the same page again

Haiz... idealess. Why I always work outside the frame one? Easily get distracted..

Random post

2008-11-12T15:22:00.003+08:00

One day Alice came to a fork in the road and saw a Cheshire cat in a tree. 'Which road do I t ake?' she asked. His response was a question: 'Where do you want to go?' 'I don't know,' Alice answered. 'Then,' said the cat, 'it doesn't matter.' " -- Lewis Carroll

Jesus wept.

2008-10-24T18:42:00.001+08:00

He understand and He knows. A verse with only two words - far more sufficient.

Thinking of Mac

2008-10-23T20:13:00.003+08:00

My wish for this year is to get a Macbook. Not a need but just want...

Jonathan Ive, Apple’s chief designer said:

“Traditionally notebooks are made from multiple parts. With the new MacBook, we’ve replaced all of those parts with just one part—the unibody. The MacBook’s unibody enclosure is made from a single block of aluminum, making the new MacBook fundamentally thinner, stronger and more robust with a fit and finish that we’ve never even dreamed of before,”

I called it as "One Piece". ehe(I here refer to me myself)

And Steve Jobs claimed:

“Apple has invented a whole new way of building notebooks from a single block of aluminum. And, just as important, they are the industry’s greenest notebooks.

The new MacBooks offer incredible features our users will love —like their stunning all-metal design,

great 3D graphics and LED backlit displays

—at prices up to $700 less than before.”

All these not really make me excited unless when he says:

Promotional next month with 30% discount and I will definately go all my way to get this baby.

...but sad is only happen in my dream...

ten yrs cycle is coming... precisely now is happening so better don't simply spend money on unnecessary stuff.

Mujizat Itu Nyata

2008-10-22T04:43:00.005+08:00

Tak terbatas kuasa-Mu Tuhan
Semua dapat Kau lakukan
Apa yang kelihatan mustahil bagiku
Itu sangat mungkin bagi-Mu

Chorus:
Di saat ku tak berdaya
Kuasa-Mu yang sempurna
Ketika ku percaya
Mujizat itu nyata

Bukan kar'na kekuatan
Namun Roh-Mu ya Tuhan
Ketika ku berdoa
Mujizat itu nyata

Bridge :
Mujizat itu dekat di mulutku
Dan ku hidup oleh percaya

Take a breath

2008-10-17T23:25:00.003+08:00

I walked across a crowded street
A sea of eyes cut through me
And I saw you in the middle
Your upset face, you wear it well
You camoflauge the way you feel
When everything's the matter

We've all been down that road before
Searching for that something more

Worlds are spinning round
There's no sign of slowing down
So won't you take a breath?
Just take a breath
People change and promises are broken
Clouds can move and skies will be wide open
Don't forget to take a breath

Blink our eyes
Life's rearranged
To our surprise, it's still okay
It's the way things happen
Summer comes and then it goes
Hold on tight and brace for cold
And it's only for a moment

We've all been down that road before
Searching for that something more

Worlds are spinning round
There's no sign of slowing down
So won't you take a breath?
Just take a breath
People change and promises are broken
Clouds can move and skies will be wide open
Don't forget to take a breath

Life isn't suffocating
Air isn't overrated

Worlds are spinning round
There's no sign of slowing down
So won't you take a breath?
Just take a breath

Worlds are spinning round
There's no sign of slowing down
So won't you take a breath?
Just take a breath
Take a breath
People change and promises are broken
Clouds can move and skies will be wide open
Don't forget to take a breath

Worlds are spinning round
There's no sign of slowing down
So won't you...
Don't forget to take a breath
(Don't forget to take a breath)

why don't you just take a breath...

by Jonas Brothers

Today

2008-10-15T11:29:00.003+08:00

There were days start with right track and otherwise. Today start will a wrong one definitely. Consequences of it is unavoidable. When will it over of these tensed and unpleasant days?

receive and perceive. Just in between the line things can change, one extreme to the other extreme. Well, I am not qualified to talk more on these but all are just about learning process. We never stop learning until we give up on moving on. Belief system should change and mentality should reshape. Cheers-

Pup

2008-10-07T15:54:00.002+08:00

Race

2008-10-04T08:48:00.002+08:00

Time can never be enough if don't use it wisely. Today I reminded of a uncle shared about race. The are different type of race: sprints, middle & long distance race, hurdles, relay and some other race.

What kind of race we running determine the attitude we will have towards life. Well, there are one type of race that every one desired and wanted to that's a race that make a second counted. Are you? Some might say neh, why make life so difficult? They dont want they are probably just don't know how or perhaps they have been classified as losen one by the community they lived in which made them wanted to give up on continue the unfinished race. I don't know where am I now but at least for this moment I really wanted to spend my days worth living for, a race that made every second count is what I longing for and desired. When it come to a relay race. Every one is equally important.

The moment you hold the baton there is a moment you have to strive all you have trained for and give the very best of your ability. To win the race might not easy but to finish the race is paying respect of the effort the rest and yourself have putting into.

Time Flies

2008-10-02T00:59:00.006+08:00

I suddenly felt that time is scary... it passing by so fast. Too fast.

I want to eat durian. The craving for durians is so so strong now. LOL

why this pic?

Durians :-D

Let me introduce this lovely one

2008-09-26T10:10:00.006+08:00

I'm sorry forgot to introduce this lovely one. Month ago I was keep waiting and now finally arrived. Yeah! Can say love in first sight when I first encounter this lovely one. Lovely isn’t it? Though I'm a love in many sights type of person, appearance wise I can’t say much but the price(starting at $349), spec (SSD man 2x faster than the hdd we using now) and the mobility is really trigger me la. Just imagine sitting at the back of the boring lecture instead of listening the stupid slides reading presentation from the lecturer I rather do my FYP at the back there. Syok right? hehe… I wanna sell off my lappie for this lovely one. Indeed.

But sad thing is it wasn’t available in Malaysia yet. Haiz. Can only find it at State’s Dell wedsite.

And this lovely one named Inspiron Mini 9.

Ok, here’s the spec overview:

I am in love, well-groomed and elegant

2008-09-25T14:09:00.004+08:00

wide awake

2008-09-25T01:53:00.006+08:00

Just woke up and am having a clearer mind now. Ya I have decided to do what I think will benefit others. Am not sure how it will lead but I believe this will certainly do me good. I want my passion back.

Last weekend my tutor was sharing about how our mind works. It's interesting. He said that sometime we need to extend our mind range from the normal range to think out of the box. And now I'm practising it. Well it might not a big deal to others but for me it's a refreshing thing, start-off with bi-monthly and see how's it goes. Early of the days I been asked by the administrator of the CT forum for helping in a monthly or bi-monthly newsletter and now I will give it a shot in bi-monthly issue. For the moment, I am good now.

Correction: This is not my battle alone cause You had already won the victory. It just take time to realised. You have highly exalted and I am actually obligated. I am grateful.

why la...No... One day

2008-09-24T21:33:00.004+08:00

This morning it felt so close that I can coming back to you. No, I won't let you go this time. Circumstances might have find a way to block my sight but I wanna break free. Freedom from the failure that tied me in. I want to be a total free from all of these. Letting it go and getting it back. I can do it. There is so much more that I can achieve and contribute.

This is not just the end of it but it just the sign of a new beginning. Every new day is a miracle in process. I trust in you. And I commit myself into your hand. Guide me and reveal yourself to me. This is my battle and I will win it for you. I will. one day.

Things never happen the same way twice

2008-09-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

I am wonder on how my mind some time can really remember things with detail but the other time not exactly. Back to early June 2008, it was Friday and the second day of the Prince Caspian Premium, I not as prior planned go for watching Narnia that showed at 8:15pm but somehow tempted and promise immediately when asked to. On the way back home with leslie, we find it fun in quoting whatever been said in the movie. Then by chance I quoted what have been said by Aslan. It happened when getting through traffic light. Before reaching the traffic light it was green light from far away before we reach, but in the half way passing through the traffic lights turns to orange. And the second traffic light near DPS just before reached, with a distance about 50meters, I said “wa tonight the traffic light all the way green is it?”. When we thought we surely will get through again since the light was still green but just two seconds passed with a distance I decided to stop as it turning to red and I just quoted what Aslan said in the movie: "Things never happen the same way twice". The words that Aslan said since then has been planted (subsequent to simply quoted what been said in the movie and laugh at own-self). What actually keep me ponder was why Aslan said it twice? And is kind of weird when same words come out from Aslan mouth ‘twice’ in different scene, the first most believe is in Lucy’s dream and the other is in reality, it’s kind of ironic.

As days went by when these words popped up again this morning I found an explanation of what it meant. Well in the story, as you know Lucy characterized as the innocent one who believe completely in whatever she been told and this made her the first one who discover there were another world called ‘Narnia’ which was behind the wardrobe. When she told her siblings, they don’t believe in her in the first place. So standing in her shoe, what would she think when the closest one her siblings whom she dependent on doesn’t believe in her? Well, definitely Lucy will be upset and especially when treated as bluffing in a point. Coming back to Prince Caspian when she grown a bit older, the circumstance where no one believes in her happened again. Anyway in the process of growing up the circumstances will be different from the one before. We will see things more intellectually and with different level of emotional immunity due to past experiences. Hence, what Lucy will have in mind definitely different from where she was in the beginning and the circumstances that tweaked are the foundation of the learning process. Aslan want all these to be an important learning process to Lucy. He wants Lucy to grow in different ways not in follow the echoing incident which she has had in her dream to happen all over again. Make it simple it actually might be the test of faith and trust that Lucy had put in Aslan.

I suddenly feel like want to read it through the whole series of Narnia. There might be some insight yet to be discovered that C.S Lewis had in stored inside the stories. Hrmm.

I always have an out of rationality idea to put aside everything and do the thing I like only first. So if by any chance I happen to get my hand on The Chronicles of Narnia.. haha.. there will be a oxford dictionary beside my bed and weeks of isolated 8 hours daily between me and the books. (8hours sleep and the rest my basic physiology needs). Hehe. Jk.

Obrigado!

2008-09-23T08:11:00.004+08:00

There is more than words=)
atlas of the promise land. Full speed toward the greater things yet to be done. I owe you everything cause you never owe me anything.

Finding rest

2008-09-23T05:08:00.003+08:00

I sleep but still can never find enough rest. I have no idea why my eyes can so easily feel tire, some time i can feel the heaviness of just lifting the eye's lid after a period of time. It can get dry so fast that even 15 mins ago just washed my face. Hence, I set a reminder to remind myself to get a 'eye moist'.

Today planned to go hostel in the afternoon ended came at 'yuugata' subsequent to the long-life rain and the worse is forgot to bring my room key. Anyhow I'm glad that i had duplicated a key and asked my apartment mate to keep for me but still wasted an hour just to wait for them to come back from dinner. if I go back home and take then I can spare at least ten mins.

I need a place to really find rest, and I know there is a only place I can go;the secret place into your embrace. Frequency been adjusted and I want to receive the signal clearly. I am sorry for the disobedient. I thank you for the songs that giving warmth. Let today be not the take it for granted day. I love you Jesus!!!

Alleluia To Christ The Lord - Sidney Mohede

2008-09-23T04:48:00.003+08:00

I will lift my heart and sing
I will worship You My King
Earth and Heaven now proclaim
Jesus Christ The Mighty Name

Through the storms and raging sea
I will never be alone
When my hope seems out of sight
I know You will shine Your light

Alleluia
Alleluia
Alleluia
Alleluia to Christ The Lord

Footprints in the Sand

2008-09-20T13:21:00.005+08:00

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed He was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from His life. For each scene He noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One belonging to Him and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of His life flashed before Him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of His life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of His life.

This really bothered Him and He questioned the LORD about it. LORD you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.

The LORD replied, my precious, precious child, I Love you and I would never leave you! During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.

-Carty, C. J. (1963). Footprints in the Sand. In.
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whenever I felt lonely and helpless I will always reminded of this poem. And it also evoked me how warmth the embrace are and it still with me since the moment I first read it. Language can be so beautiful that it give me such inner strength and warmth whenever I read it over and over again. It's incomparable.

You always walk alongside with me. Thank you can never be enough and I’m glad You found me.

I dig out who wrote this poem. It was wrote in 1922 and rewrite in 1963 by Carolyn Carty.

Jesus *heart* u in different languages.

2.30 hours for 5 mins = 0

2008-09-19T12:00:00.004+08:00

Today the presentation just canceled like flipping papers.. duh.. even no marks but don kacau us like that ma.. spent 2.30hours preparing the end for nothing. Later 2:30pm lecture sure lethargic one.

Funny, cant help but keep going to the same place. I will stop going there liao. Indeed.

Now the Rubik's Cube challenge. There is something I want to try it out soon. And try to solve as fast as I can.
Here is the cube i wanna challenge:

Neh, not yet la, at least after this one first:

Hehehe. With months of practises maybe can't solve it within 2mins but at least 10mins lo. haha.

ok first of all go buy a rubik cube first. haha.

So semangat want to go jog and gym but forgot to bring sport shoe with me. Duh!

Put Into Perspective

2008-09-19T07:00:00.003+08:00

Yes, today will be a fruitful day. There is nothing I can't within control. I miss time of exercise. The last time I go exercised will be probably six months ago. Ya, you can imagine I look like having a 3months baby. I just noticed that I wasn't consistent in labeled my post. Cause most of the time I forgot to categorize it or precisely i don't know how to categorize it. Haha. It's a process of learning though. It's important to put things and problems into perspective. And there is always a way where there seems no way. My favourite and first ever heard christian songs(i not so sure and i think so la) is 'My All in All', I still remember the CD that my tuition teacher gave when I was 17.
Times really fly. I missed some of my friends back then, my buddies. When are they now?I wonder. I hope he is doing ok; a particular one whom I get along with most of the time when I was a always lone ranger in class not because I dislike by many but is my personality that time always read 'Jin Yong', 'Ku Lung' novel, conan the inspector comics etc where I can spend wholeday in room just into the world of the author had created and in the ages of 12 i had formed a inside world that certain people will find it not easy to talk to me where I found most of the conversation are silly. The author had really brain wash me and into the Disnasty Ching Era.LOL.
I'm sorry for not doing good as in keeping in touch. And pathetically I still am. I will put all things into perspective soon. I think I will write more from now as it can really evoked the time of my youth where initially I don't know what to share. When I was 'old enough' before forgot my own name I can at least reminisce the past to myself as I reading through. and self entertain of the silly, disappoint, depress, fun and silly moments. Ha.
Time to go to class.

A must!

2008-09-18T23:51:00.006+08:00

Must finish up my FYP chapter one before I can go back home. This is a must.

150bpm

2008-09-18T06:32:00.001+08:00

Nervous, nervous, nervous... Lord, please shield me with Your precious blood

Experiment ends here

2008-09-16T08:20:00.002+08:00

I spent too much time on crossdomain.xml:p... can't help but the curiosity of finding out the possibility to embed mp3 flash player with the crossdomain.xml playlist(in my Google Page Creator local host) at my blogspot had really got all my mind into it. Finally I had clear my mind and found a easiest solution: Pay a annual fee of RM18 to get my own domain name webpage then I can do whatever I want to create in it. Anyway, this will never happened unless I'm really pro (even kids are better than me I guess) in this area but sadly I'm not where I just simply explore for my curiosity. Ok no more fancy web gadgets... until 17 November=)

Haiz...my bad my bad.

I was thinking...

2008-09-15T01:49:00.007+08:00

'Person' and 'Persona'... as I read a blog of a novelist few days ago, he posted a question. I cant really remember exactly what's the question but I still can recall what he's trying to ask. He said: person was origin from the Latin word 'persona' which mean mask and he asked are we who we are or are we the mask that we are wearing that meant to fit politically or socially in the society that we live. I answered him that time because I just feel like want to voice out that moment. I gave a illustration on Thomas Edison and his invention, now recap I don't think my answer is a wise one.

First I must admit that often time I do persona. To not letting people I respect down, to least their worries, to be the person that might have had been in their mind or perhaps to be self-defence. Different one might have different reasons and there is no judgemental for any reason. However I do have rule on persona.. like there must be no persona in my relationship with my family. I don't know why but I am always sensible enough to know whenever they are persona to me or not and I find it offensive when they do. of cause I will not just blow out like that but I will try to consider and figure what's the reason behind the persona. The persona must be stop if want to maintain the quality of trust in each other.

Stress... why such thing exist?

2008-09-09T23:41:00.002+08:00

I don't want stress, I hated to be stressed. It made me take the easy way out to be irresponsible, to do things that is pleasurable to my desire. It must braked to a halt. I'm 'Moonlight Resonance' overdosed now is time to out of mind and out of sight. Concentrate yong shen, concentrate.

This few days I always distracted by almost everything. Like the header thing which made me wanna explore more once discover something that's impressed me, the artistic vectors, the wallpaper competition, and much-much more which is really attracted me to be 'stress-free' that in the end made me even more stressed.

I'm sorry Lord, to disappointed You. I owe You the glory that I have promised.

Your Piece of Mind

2008-09-02T02:38:00.003+08:00

I logged in to my campus forum site and my lecturer posted this question. Who Are You 10 Years From Now? For about ten minutes I keep ponder on this question... and maybe that's the caused that causes me sometime aimless and unmotivated especially when stress haunted me. I need to rest and i need a break and more so a private time to seek You earnestly in finding who i wanna be ten yrs from now.

untitled

2008-08-18T20:01:00.003+08:00

Today is really unfruitful day. I spent my day just like that. Lord, please help me to plan and remind me of the things that I must do as the day are approaching. For this moment I want to reprogram my mind and do the right things rather than doing things right cause time is near and things with getting out of hand if I still don't set my goal. Please strengthen me and strengthen those who are weak and wish to find strengthen in You. Every solution will give birth to another problem but when You are the center things will be all balanced again. I now cast all my anxiety to You. I don't want to live my life without the peace that You already given, live in this world just make me forgotten the truth that You will always be where I am. Not because of what I did or who I am but because of who You are. Please keep reminding me and whoever need to hear from You daily that we have been called and we are all chosen to be bless and as a blessing to others.

The thought in the mind

2008-08-12T19:31:00.002+08:00

Hmm... u maybe get ur point. But come to thk of it why do u thk i nvr scold you instead i show you how the instruction is trying to tell u and highlighted it the main part that I think is what make me understand it in the first place.. did I sounded I being mad?? Have you ever thought of that?I was avoiding to scold you and in my heart i wanted to let you learn how I learn what I have had learnt so far. The first time of format my pc due to my mistake on trying out what I not sure and caused the system crash and that cost RM80 ringgit to call the technician to repair it, and since then mom was asking me to be careful on how to using the pc... that time i was only form 4 and was nvr tourch pc before and no one was teaching me about single thing about pc...so i was at your place also and that's make me no right to scold you.. what i trying to tell u is, it's the initiative of my heart that I don't want to trouble anyone unless i myself really cant handle it(know why I said I can be emotion?its another hint to tell you that see what's is beyond what i wanted to actually tell you and also maybe i was playing smart that i can understand you but maybe i not).. all this come with a good deeds..and surely you know once I have had let my emotion taking control and scolded ppl is all because I kind of person easily being emotional but i know the cost of it now so now i fixing it.. partly of why i posted it here also i wanted to know how are you going to handle it and yes you can even handle it very well if you really understand me...and I nvr take it heartly.. some time communication must taking place in order to build relationship... There are different struggle in everyone when people don't understand you but that doesn't mean you have to keep yourself in isolation. and besides this from what you wrote in the piece of paper i know that u really grown.

No one is perfect remember that. i give you another verse, Philippians 3:17 and Hebrews 10:24,25. am i spur you to a better place or are you doing the same thing to me?And don't forget who are we actually following. I'm just a dust yet not forgeting we all also the apples of His eyes.

Argh!

2008-08-12T08:03:00.002+08:00

I am tired of doing everything yet people just don't want to observe and try to DIY. Sorry for become emotional but I also a merely human, made of fresh not iron. The instruction is just there for your guide, do you think I'm such a genius that I know everything without cracking my head to understand the concept. Anyway often time I born of trial and error type of so called genius, so I will not blame you but I do hope you can treat this as your 'trial and error' for your next experiment, to think of it it's such a waste for it can still be use for another two times.T_T

wow... three weeks already?

2008-05-27T01:04:00.004+08:00

Today just one word, tired. Yesterday morning my boss asked me when will I leaving and my supervisor told my boss i have been there three weeks d... time passed really fast that's what i felt at that moment while there are a lot of things waiting to work it out..inspiration, inspiration i really need you. and i still owe my previous boss a business plan kok... ngaiti... shame on me to give him a promise just like that..and my PTA kok.. walau eh why every time when i think i can do it but always at the end felt like i couldn't do it because of that la and because of blah blah blah... maybe is the soft skill that i really lack of...

The concert was great being able to see synergy team again indeed was a blessing to me.Jacques still like old time always a thoughtful guy beside he is the one i only been keeping in touch with for first couple of month after he left and then aha u know me i always lost contact with ppl without realize and again -soft skill.there is no way to success in my future field if i continue like that i think is time for me to change. ok finish scripting whatever is on my mind now is time for bed even i got thk of since i 430am need to wake up maybe i just don't need to sleep but then my eyes was really heavy and tomorrow got work some more..k i wanna zzzz liao

Happy Mother's Day!!

2008-05-12T15:11:00.007+08:00

Your sweet gentle spirit, your warm, tender ways,
the laughter and love that you share;
If I searched the world over, I never could find a mother who'd ever compare.

You mean so very much to me,
and I want you to know that you are always in my heart,
no matter where I go.

You're always giving, always there to help in any way;
The loving things you've done for me, I never could repay.
I can't imagine what I'd do without the love you give.
I'll treasure your sweet heart of gold as long as I shall live.

You brighten my day with the sound of your voice,
you bring so much laughter and love,
you're the best Mother ever, and God must have smiled,
when He sent you from Heaven above.

You're always there to guide me through each step along my way;
Thank you, Mom, for being there,
All these while!

When I was young, you helped me grow,
and taught me all I had to know of love and trust and faith and hope,
and everything it takes to cope. You may have thought I didn't hear,
or maybe that you weren't quite clear;
But all the things you taught to me were heeded very carefully,
and now I want to thank you for your love, your care, and so much more!
What would my life be without you?
I'd never have made it this far.
You've helped me through all my endeavors;
You're the best!
You're a peach!
You're a STAR!

My sense of humor comes from you,
and all the funny things you do;
You make my world a better place,
and put a smile upon my face!

Learning to laugh

2008-04-29T22:39:00.003+08:00

Did you know that people who laugh live longer? It’s true. Proverbs 14:30 says, “A relaxed attitude lengthens a man’s life.” (LB)

Rick Warren: Humor is an amazing thing. It’s a tension dissolver. It’s an antidote to anxiety. It’s just like a tranquilizer, but without any troublesome side-effects. And it’s free! You don’t even need a prescription. Even God laugh: Psalm 2:4, “The One enthroned in heaven laughs.” God has a sense of humor too..hehehe. So?laugh la=p

- Warren, R. (2008). Learning to Laugh. Retrieved 29 April, 2008, from http://www.purposedrivenlife.com/en-US/FreeTools/devotional/archivedDevos/DevoArchive.htm

today reflection

2008-04-29T20:05:00.003+08:00

i'm sorry. i know i not suppose to get angry but you really make me frustrated and stubbornness can really hurt people especially to those who really care and love you. ya maybe i was overreact over my frustration but i do hope that you know that nothing is impossible as long as we fixed our focus right. it's just like the alignment of the car, when you sense that a car with misaligned wheels you can count on slippage and noise as each wheel moves in a slightly different direction. Even you can drive the car, but it takes more energy (gas), burns up more resources (tires), and if you go too fast the whole thing shakes. is time to stand up from the fall not replace it with other thing for temporary consolation.
This is just my reflection over a today small 'quarrel' not long ago. I praise God in the end i handle it well that we all can learn a lesson through it. At least i have learned.

Four more to go...

2008-04-25T07:06:00.000+08:00

Four more, four more left.You can do it, gambate!!today felt so tired and maybe coming down after the morning paper was a mistake cause i didn't know that celcom service counter not open today.i'm really fed up with celcom d if next semester still always service down i wanna sign off the contract even i will be fined, this holiday i gonna start doing my final year project don't wanna do it when semester start cause i won't have enough time.writing a blog using mandarin definitely took time especially i hardly remember the pinyin am pretty annoy when write half way suddenly line putus, ish geram...well maybe God want me to study first i guess.. now i wanna take a afternoon nap before the afternoon practice ... monday will be my nightmare, Research Methodology, a tough paper. For those who still sitting for papers, all the best!!!

coming back to myself, how i wish i can spend more time with my friends... especially my buddies and especially the one i miss all the time yet... sigh... till now i find no words can express myself, how pitiful

度日如年啊！

2008-04-24T13:48:00.007+08:00

看来我真是不折不扣的小气鬼，可悲可悲。
“只要...”，“只要...”一个不好玩的游戏就如John Walker所说的；
看来我真的有很多的地方要学习，连小的都来教唆我...可怜
好了明天就好好的加油吧！

stress stress stress...

2008-04-21T03:44:00.001+08:00

i wanna go jog...

worry is a waste of time

2008-04-20T23:18:00.007+08:00

yesterday hearing from others over a pouring out session there was a lesson of how we as human being can be so insensitive which i often does, indeed there are different perception about things and people around us however what matter the most is how i see myself. i'm relieved that from my observation i start getting into what is happening and it wasn't as bad as i think and now what i can do is on how to remove the insecurity of the worry of future in where to go and the moment when apart with friends... from personality definitely will be hard if wanna do something that relating to people... not forgetting the 'stubbornness'... soft spot will be something is interested and manageable or perhaps 'peer pressure'... hmm... will see how then.

mi vida no es mia

2008-04-18T00:54:00.004+08:00

i keep observing every single detail that i ought to ever since i been told to and yet is there something i overlook... i need you father please help me know that you are with me... i don't know when will i be mentally collapse.. a total defeat by the stubbornness of humanity... i been there before and truly the impact was there on my chest... what if and what if there are something else... keep my spiritual eyes awake oh father and teach me so that i can learn

exams is nvr my first priorities cause i hate test... whatever form that it may be... adding my hair drop problem is getting serious... i must come back to a proper normal sleeping time... not interval slept two hours then wake up

I need a refreshing body and mind to face tomorrow and i believe in you that you always there for me... speak to me through other ways beside 'Jon Walker' cause i want more

y sigo esperandote, buscandote

2008-04-15T01:42:00.003+08:00

Al escuchar Tu voz
Instruye en mi Tus maneras
Mis pensamientos no son Tuyos
Mis maneras no son de Ti

Escucha mi clamor sincero
Quiero seguir Tu plan para mi

Y sigo
Esperandote, buscandote
Y sigo
Esperandote, encontrandote
En mi vida

Al escuchar Tu voz
Dame Tus consejos
Yo se que te encuentro cuando busco
De todo corazón

Escucha mi clamor sincero
Quiero seguir Tu plan para mi

Y sigo
Esperandote, buscandote
Y sigo
Esperandote, encontrandote
En mi vida

Mi vida no es mia,
Mi vida no es mia,
Mi vida no es mia.

Y sigo
Esperandote, buscandote
Y sigo
Esperandote, encontrandote
En mi vida

Undone frame work...

2008-04-10T01:31:00.002+08:00

just came back from supper... kinda tired... these two weeks kinda often go to library... to do the frame work that been asking from my supervisor and also last two group assignments that needed to pass up this friday... somehow i can just fall asleep in the 24hours study room even once i can slept while just sit on chair and i didn't realize until my friend show me the photo that he took and said i go there slept only.. haha... ya i guess all these thanks to my abnormal biological clock... too many thoughts just going on in my mind and i hardly can concentrate to what i am suppose to... I wish May can faster come and yet if possible i want to stop time where i want it to stay where it is..

8th of April

2008-04-07T23:36:00.003+08:00

Today is a very significant day... my spiritual birthday... often before we start writing we will start with the title that is related to what are you going to write... so 8th of April is my post title but does it mean anything?I would says no.. the date itself doesn't mean anything but is the decision that had made on that very moment. "Baptism" by mean of immersion - which symbolizes the dying of one's life of sin (under water) and the rising in the Body of Jesus (rising from the water). We all should always be mindful that we are a new creation ever since we raise up from the water. The past may haunted you and deceit you to go back to your old self, you may fall and hit hard on the solid ground but from there you will become more careful and learn a lesson from it. I like the quote "our greatest glory consist not in never failing but in rising every time we fail"... but it's dangerous for me to always think that failing is nothing or get used to it and do nothing about it however once we change the perspective to a positive side then it can actually turn the whole thing around and it's just the matter on how we perceive.

I have always had this kind of feeling.... been defended... it's not something which is abstract... for we all have a big God - one and only true God. I think there are simple principle that I need to practice when blog.. grab whatever inspired you cause that moment you got so much to write but then if halted too long you will wonder how to start.

In the end of the day what we all want to see is when Jesus smile at us and says "Well done, good and faithful servant"

Today is 1st of April

2008-04-02T00:24:00.006+08:00

yea april fool that's what we called for today...the first ever person who fooled me this year is my dear brother naughty mr. growing up ... i thought i was kind enough to put a messenger shout box msg telling ppl be aware of today is april fool in the midday ( rain kinda heavy aft my group discussion for management science assignment and went back hostel still got two hours left before class so go online awhile lo...) but alas what i get is...

Caleb: hi hansem.. how are you? i might be coming back in june.. don't tell anyone la..
pretty dumb reply: o serious? cool u confirmed d?
Caleb: APRIL FOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!
(tak larat wanna talk to him d but wanna ignore also cant cz really such a long time didn't talk to him... anyway i did ignore him for quite a moment)

what i wanna address here is not how i been fooled but rather on the following conversation which really blessed my heart...

(aft as usual what we will ask in msn this and that... and until out of topic...)

mr. growing up: anyway..one day hansem we'll see the Christians in M'sia rise up and see things change.. all the Christians.. whether you speak Chinese or Tamil, Malay or English.. all unite together..
me: Amen!
mr. growing up: that's what we need to see.
me: ya one day and that day will come
mr. growing up: yup.. one day soon. give it ten years.. when i have 12 kids..
me (o no please don't spoil my mood again): u sure ah? 12 kids?
mr. growing up: yea la. adopt ten..
me (phew..): ok ok.. aha
mr. growing up (become sober a bit from his idea of adopt ten children): haha nolah.. too many la..
(blah blah blah)
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As usual the connection was really slow at night... sigh.. how i wish my hostel can hv it own internet connection... if not wanna find a journal also like taking ages.. really a waste of time..despite always disconnected whenever my connection been idle and i hv no choice to continue to download to active my connection.. anyway just found another way thanks to imeem which i can upload songs which i can put it in my blog.. so anyone hv any song request?

Tomorrow morning after class and the one hour seminar we gonna go to town for the last assignment... decision theory so called management science... hope everything went on well that we manage to find a company allow us to use their data for the inventory model.. ok gonna get back to my management science text book for further reading...today overall i'm blessed truly blessed

A nudge

2008-03-31T01:10:00.002+08:00

some one nudge me and woke me up.. now is 12:51am d... hmm... my neck feel better liao after such a long time just lie down on my bed and then doze off...the plan of going back uni tonight have to change d... so what's today worth?today as usual lunch after service and went for pastor's favorite place... i shocked by 'Mr. N's told that some one linked to my blog and he accidentally found out the link which redirecting to my blog...that time honestly i wanting to dig myself into a hole but come with a mixed feeling... i thought and thought thinking that maybe that's God trying to tell me that

"hey where is your written thoughts and daily walk with me? wasn't you said you wanna write me a blog for me to read?and i tell you what that's unnecessarily cause i'm omnipotent and omniscience God... the other day in your mind you wanting a reader and now i gave you so you better start write something or else... yeah don't you try plan ahead of me cause I'm the Planner not you... don't you ever again chafe under yourself of the restraint and says don't have enough time final exam is near and only 23 days left... It is vain for you to rise up early, to retire late, to eat the bread of painful labors and this is the day that I have made so use it to the max to radiate my light and I will show you the way"

So here i am, will start my week with a enthusiastic each new day and bring it as offering in every weekend... o ya adding to that we have come out of idea that starting a CF with a few of us and i believe God is going to do something... every decision we have made there is always something God intend to tell us, teach us, show us and start doing His work through us which far beyond our comprehension. All we should learn is to fully dependent and trust Him... must learn more words so that i can easily deliver my thoughts.. to end my write i remind myself with

~God in Christ in us by way of His holy spirit~

WWJD true mean

2008-03-25T01:03:00.001+08:00

by Jon Walker

Jesus turned to Peter and said, ‘Get away from me, Satan! You are a dangerous trap to me. You are seeing things merely from a human point of view, and not from God’s.’” Matthew 16:23 (NLT)

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Jesus says we should think like He thinks – with a heavenly perspective above and beyond mere human thinking.

This doesn’t mean we become mindless robots; rather, our thoughts should begin to match the thoughts of God as His Spirit works within us, helping us to look at people and circumstances from his perspective: “From now on, then, we do not know anyone in a purely human way. Even if we have known Christ in a purely human way, yet now we no longer know Him like that.” (2 Corinthians 5:16, HCSB)

We set our minds on the things of God and abandon self-absorbed thinking: “Set your minds on what is above, not on what is on the earth.” (Colossians 3:2, HCSB)

Thinking like God means –

· We trust His guidance and no longer rely on our own understanding.

· We allow God to interpret the facts, since He knows the whole truth.

· We measure our thoughts against God’s Word and God’s character.

· We take ungodly thoughts captive and bring them before King Jesus.

We can’t change the way we think without His help. We must allow Him to renew our minds, acknowledging our need for His help as we bring our thoughts in line with His. We allow the Holy Spirit to guide our thoughts so God can guide us toward what to say and what to do.

This is why obedience and trust are such an important aspect of loving God. He wants us to dance in perfect step with Him – so much so that our heart, soul, strength, and mind will keep perfect time with His own steps. God is calling us to love Him with everything we’ve got in order for us to become like Christ, Who first loved us, wholly and fully.

What does this mean?

· Ask, “What would Jesus think?” – If you want to develop the mind of Christ, you need to begin thinking like Jesus. His thoughts were focused on the Father; He was in constant conversation with the Father. Jesus was self-forgetful, thinking more of others than Himself.

· Jesus understands your struggle – Jesus told Peter, “… You are a dangerous trap to me. You are seeing things merely from a human point of view, and not from God’s.” (Matthew 16:23, NLT) If seeing things from a human point of view, rather than God’s point of view, is a dangerous trap for Jesus, how much more is it a dangerous place for us to be? But, this also means Jesus understands your struggle to get your eyes on the things above.

· Question to consider: What thoughts roam your mind that you already know should be taken captive for Christ? Ask Jesus to help you “round them up,” so you can place them at His feet.

· Be encouraged – Jesus confronts Peter about his way of thinking, not to condemn him, but to teach Him the ways of God. God knows you can’t do this alone and that is why He’s placed the Holy Spirit within you to transform your mind into the mind of Christ.

我們的日子為主來夢想, 為主來發光

2008-03-24T09:40:00.002+08:00

相片裡兒時的模樣記錄著年少的時光

曾經在你我的心中要登上月亮

要飛越太平洋

多年後我們都成長

告別了青澀和迷網

曾經在你我的心中

編織的夢想是否已遺忘啊….

人生的理想是為主發光

拭去了淚水使我們更堅強

路依然漫長別失去盼望

痛苦時記得有主在你身旁

為主來夢想為主來發光

雖然有挫折但我不用沮喪

主是我力量主指引方向

我們的日子有夢想

有燦爛的陽光

~This I promise you~

2008-03-24T09:27:00.002+08:00

Ooh, ooh
When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surrounds you
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
When standing here all alone

And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Until the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun

Just close your eyes each loving day
And know this feeling won't go away
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

Over and over I thought
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all

And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Until the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

Just close your eyes each loving day
And know this feeling won't go away
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh I promise you

Thank you Lord!

2008-03-23T00:09:00.003+08:00

Today was great=)... even great in the later day... Our God really indeed is an awesome God... His goodness is always beyond comprehension. Yes all thing are in alignment again. With great hope and anticipation I expect a great year. Thank you Lord for choose us and willingly died for us on the cross for our sin and sins. You make all thing fall into places and I need not worry cause the great work that You started in us You will bring it into completion.. yes today I indeed have made a choice that this blog will not be bias cz it don't have to and my target audience will be the only True God... Today i am launching the starting of 'the unknowing blog of Hansem'.. shalom ^_^V and not forgeting Happy Easter Sunday=)

I'm wrong...

2008-03-21T19:27:00.004+08:00

I love you and I want you to love me like how I love you

Yes, I know

2008-03-21T01:45:00.002+08:00

Yes, I love her and i would want to see the best in her life so please Lord have a perfect plan for her. Everything is possible for I have a possible God who make all thing possible. Send the guardian angel to protect her and in whatever situation just let her know You are always with her... this is a shout from my heart.. unless I'm growing stronger in You or else everything will be in vain

My head is spinning...

2008-03-20T22:51:00.004+08:00

Today was really tired... finished discussion at around 6pm, i'm really exhausted... three assignments no actually was four assignment need to pass up next week... again life is really full of unexpected events... there's a moment when i felt i explain all things but in fact till the end of the day my head was upside down... no its not because of i'm exhausted but i realized that there is no perfection in understanding... why you don't trust me... when i said only mean only and my words will remain even things around me might not be the same anymore... maybe there is something i must learn... to be obedient and live lean not by my own will... or are there still a hope in where there's a trial for me... i'm really tired... yes if that's Your will let it be... i will be still and know You are God. there were past tense, here is present tense and lastly i put a full stop.(i realized- i realize- i realize.) i shall let it be another unsolved puzzle. Yes, all the time i always think i be able to change people around... like my sisters, i want them to be able to see things more clearly... maybe my way of teaching them are wrong... i just need to do the simple thing... learn to love them more and care more for them... again like what uncle kevin said open eyes so that i can see clearly what's the thing that related to the kingdom.. I'm wholeheartedly committed to You and humble i come before You in my very menial way to serve You all my life. I love You Lord. In Alignment and reposition and all things will work out right for Your glory Lord.

Give Flowers Or A Life-Long Love?

2008-03-20T03:49:00.003+08:00

“But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy and not sacrifice.’ For I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners, to repentance.” Matthew 9:13

A life-long love... yes life-long love how i long to have... ever since i was young and now i found a perfect love. Obedient better than sacrifice. Everything will be new again because You make all thing new again and each new day is a miracle in process. I love You Lord.
Now i can see with a Open eyes... which are related to You kingdom... whatever circumstance and consequence i can bear and change the situation for Your glory. Please bless that very person that i love the most and care the most all the time. From now on, my life is all Yours and I committed to You my life as a living sacrifices.

Your Grace is enough!

2008-03-18T04:18:00.002+08:00

2day i thank you for Your grace and always remain faithful... coming to think how You make all things fall into place i'm truly amazed... if yesterday not because of my house 5yrs old PSC1315 i will be death now, i'm always so careless after a whole night of finalizing my assignment and after printed out i realized that i didn't put page number even worse when i actually forgot to save it which in later time we need to add something into it... thinking back if not there are a technology that enable me to scan document and convert it to text i really can't make it and it was a group assignment which not involving me only... I'm really thankful.. today i want to consciously choose to do what i believe that i should do... Your grace is enough Lord!

The spring is coming...

2008-03-17T19:21:00.002+08:00

Yes!!I really felt that today the 'spring' is coming... I thank you for Your Love Lord... I want to be more discipline this semester and I pray that You will always guide me to the right path Lord. Again I'm excited for the future me Lord... I do learn thing from Polar Bear Theology.

God's way is higher than our ways?...

2008-03-17T17:15:00.002+08:00

In my simple and menial way i come before You... still remember these words? Ya, often time i always assume things will be better if i let it be the ways as it is... maybe i'm wrong... that day i really felt like you are a God sent... because in the later day after i wake up from my nap i felt relieved... not because of the nap... but because of i see a =)... like what i have said i always let things be the ways as it is... and i think i made another mistake... again the =) is fading... you told me that i'm a very nice guy... ya everyone said i'm a nice guy.. but i don't want to be just a nice guy... i really felt that is time for me to grow up to be a man of God... genuinely and not religious nut... yes i can see the things that related to kingdom but how can i be sure it's God's way not my own way?emotionally i feel there is a peace... and i overlooked... looks like there will be my a lesson to learn... ya at this point of time i need a private time to be in sync with the Holy Spirit... one day when you read this i just want you to know that I'm really grateful for your concern that time... strange it feel great after write out what i felt... don't think i suffer from logophobia la.. i thank you Lord for this fine weather and i know that everything will be fine if i in sync with You... talk to me Lord let me hear Your voice again and pour down Your Holy Spirit upon me... be my tower be my source of strength.

Gasp.... thank God for sparing my life...

2008-02-26T08:24:00.002+08:00

wake up at 3am after accumulated tiredness of sleepless nights, everything is worth after getting the marks of the assignments we did until 4am in the morning last week... too many things happened and ya to cut it short...after updated my blog... around 7am i went up to my uni hostel to get the official letter i left inside my room which i planned after breakfast go Borneo Adventure hand in to Mdm Sandra... on the journey back while in the midst of my thoughts and just merely 3km arriving my house i doze off... yes i doze off... this is my 4th times if including this time and the next moment i open my eyes i just passed the junction which in front of me there are few vehicles.... i keep thanking God for sparing my life... Thank you for always giving me not just second chance... i must must not drive when i exhausted... please protect all those your precious children who are like me... give them a nudge!!!

Truth about feeling

2008-02-26T05:05:00.000+08:00

… And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ …. (Philippians 1:9-10 NIV)

Submitted now for your consideration: Pamela, a loving wife, a nurturing mother, a prayerful Christian. This morning, her husband, Richard, left a tender note on the bathroom mirror, inviting Pamela to join him for lunch at their favorite restaurant.

Pamela eyes the clock throughout the morning, anticipating meeting her life-long love at 1 p.m. She’s excited and feeling extraordinarily loved by her husband, so she leaves for the restaurant early in order to buy Richard a small gift. She splurges more, buying two balloons, which float up from the ribbon wrapped around the present.

As she pays for the gift, she looks in her purse and notices she’s left her cell phone at home – again. No matter, it’s 12:30 and in a few short minutes she’ll be with Richard, giving him her undivided attention. Who needs a cell phone in moments like that?

Pamela arrives at the restaurant first and patiently waits for Richard to arrive. What she doesn’t yet know is that Richard has been in a horrible traffic accident and was pronounced dead on the scene at 12:24 – about the time Pamela was tying the balloons to the bow, buoyantly anticipating the approaching romantic rendezvous.

The point to this sorrowful snapshot is that our feelings don’t always reflect the truth. Pamela is soaring high on her feelings of love, even though her husband is already dead. The truth is bearing down on her, and it will immediately alter her feelings when it hits – but her feelings are not yet in line with the truth.

Imagine Pamela as she waits for her husband, and he does not arrive. She’s forgotten her cell phone, so she waits. After a while, she becomes annoyed; after 20 minutes, she’s irritated and hurt. Her feelings still do not line up with the truth.

After 40 minutes, she begins to worry. This just isn’t like Richard. Maybe something has happened. She asks to borrow the restaurant's phone, and she calls Richard’s office, but is transferred to his boss. He says, “Pamela, we’ve been trying to reach you. There’s been a terrible accident ….” The truth and Pamela’s feelings collide.(Walker 2008)

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Yes, indeed oftentimes the truth behind out feeling is some how doesn't define the truth. When a words spoken how do you interpret it? We always will perceive it in a way we want to believe or by our past experience and own perspective of understanding on that particular person but the truth behind the words we often ignored. These same goes with when we read the words of God or the above devotional article, we often choose what we want to hear and listen. Agape love is more than just sentimental gush... Eugene H. Peterson, whom always looking for an English way to make the biblical text relevant to the conditions of the people, the author of The Message bible translated Philippians 1:9-10 as below

So this is my prayer: that your love will flourish and that you will not only love much but well. Learn to love appropriately. You need to use your head and test your feelings so that your love is sincere and intelligent, not sentimental gush. Live a lover's life, circumspect and exemplary, a life Jesus will be proud of:
(Php 1:9-10)

If love just meant to be sentimental gush it's just too 'surface'... it have to be involve sacrifices and pain... the must know verse, "This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. (Joh 3:16). By knowing is not enough but show the world how this verse had really changed you. Christ had shown us the utmost L.O.V.E , crucified on the cross for all of us, a so-called human since first Adam to the very current and many years to come.

- Walker, J. (2008). "The Truth about Feelings." Retrieved 15 Feb, 2008, from http://www.purposedrivenlife.com/en-US/FreeTools/devotional/archivedDevos/DevotionalArchive.htm.

after the 145 days... continue

2008-02-26T03:25:00.000+08:00

I found this quote ....

A book is the only place in which you can examine a fragile thought without breaking it, or explore an explosive idea without fear it will go off in your face. It is one of the few sources of information left that is served up without the silent black noise of a headline, the doomy hullabaloo of a commercial. It is one of the few havens remaining where a man’s mind can get both provocation and privacy.

— Edward P. Morgan, Clearing the Air (1963)

... and some how it does influence on how and why am i want to continue write my 'blog'. First,

1. It must be out of my 'heart'
2. A lot of grammar mistakes will not be a problem as long as it's my book of life, which thinner than the one in heaven
3. Possible as the book titled 'clearing the air'
4. As a explorer of my personal connection between the inner life and the written word
5. Extension of my msn msger shout box
6. Reflection of my daily devotional reading
7. For future reference on my growing up process as a accountable, knowledgeable, depth of insight man... despite the current me are far away from becoming the person i wanted to be

In The Beginning ...

2007-10-04T03:49:00.000+08:00

aha.. it might sound ridiculous.. tomorrow afternoon i going to hand in a assignment but now what am I here on earth doing?? posting a blog?lol... anyway I always wanted a place where I can find a way- a way that I can really thrown away my thoughts and what I felt.. which can be wrong here in this world that majority think is ridiculous.. anyway sometime it's important to being who you actually are instead of what other's think about you.. I do need some discipline - a discipline that giving all my best on whatever I do; well, it can be in my studies, in the way how I treat people or even on the small and tiny thing that no one would even care.. I can't just letting the time passing me by and do nothing about it , I have to start and do some thing that I can offer.. what I really mean is.. I want to be the person whom God have designed me to be, not just merely 'christian' in the outside that people can see but I wanna go deeper and deeper-- where I found the everlasting love, and live it from the inside out..

well this is my beginning.. my beginning to let other discover me in a more high-tech way- an electronic communication device -'Blog'-*wink*